Things I am becoming increasingly aware of:

1.  I’m really, really gay.

2.  I mean REALLY gay.

3.  …and that’s most likely a sin…

4.  …and I might or might not actually mind that fact.

5.  Dealing with my brain is easier with booze…

6.  …except that I can’t drink while I’m on drugs.

7.  Drugs might or might not be worth sobriety, some days.

8.  Numb is pretty good, usually.  The only time “numb” is bad is if you’ve literally lost feeling in a limb or something due to an accident or other loss of nerve sensitivity.

9.  God.

10.  Listening to happy music makes you feel happy.  Listening to sad music sometimes makes you feel happy.  Listening to no music makes you feel sad.  Dancing in your computer chair makes you feel very, very happy.